So, once again utterly depressed, I head for work.
I teach two really fun classes and then have a meeting with my manager, who says I am doing pretty well but I need to teach with a quieter voice. Me, loud???? You are shocked, right? I am very worried about my ability to tone it down – but promise to try.
Then, I explain the whole tale of woe, apologizing profusely the whole time and saying I didn’t know that the meeting was going to work out that way. I hadn’t even thought there was going to be a meeting today about all this. I thought it was just a minor misunderstanding, no big deal and it would just take some time. I mean, isn’t that the way things work in France (and with red tape everywhere)?
I told her I really liked the job and was excited to do it and also that I would be glad to stay on and work for free for as long as she needed to find and train a replacement. I would never walk out or leave her in a lurch, even if I’m not getting paid!
She seemed relieved that I wasn’t deserting her but also said she refused to accept the decision. She said the new plan was to get my carte changed for la vie famille and make a huge case for why this would work. She says we are going to ‘drown them in paper’. Show them how much I am integrated into French life and how vital I am to society. She says I am getting the runaround and we will fight this.
She said “Look, I need you! I don’t have anybody else. And you should get paid for your work.”
So, for now, things are still, I guess. in limbo. Sorry for the exhaustive detail – I hope it wasn’t too boring. I continue to teach. I guess I am going to prepare a dossier to show what an upstanding part of French society I am (should have done that instead of blogging, right?). I will keep on fighting, hoping and living until the next rejection comes along. Or until we have success. I am already considering contacting the newspaper to have them write a story about all this rigmarole if it doesn’t work out. Maybe there could be a greve – just for me.
Yes she can! Yes she can! Yes she can!